I look in the mirror and all I see is ugliness staring back at me. Bad skin, bad teeth and just one big disgusting ugly mess. I deserve to be punished for existing like this. So, I’ll always carry on self-harming in any way shape or form that I can. I’m just tired, fed up and I feel like I’m getting nowhere in life.
To my Mum, Dad and Brother and all the people closest to me. I’ve been trying so hard for you all, you’re all the reason I’m still living but, It’s killing me feeling so low every single day. I know I never say it but I love you all so god damn much.
I go to bed every night wishing I wouldn’t wake up, but I do. I know I should be grateful for life as some people don’t have the choice to live. I would 100% swap places with them people without even thinking twice if I could!
I never know what to say to anyone. I’m hurting inside, every day is a battle. Unfortunately, I don’t think it’s one I can face anymore…
So, with being in the frame of mind I’m in now this will be my last post… for the foreseeable.