LIVING with Body dysmorphia part 2.

Hey everyone,

imagine waking up looking in a mirror and despising everything you see…

well, welcome to my life. Every day I wake up, look in the mirror and immediately want to hurt myself as a punishment for the disgustingly ugly thing I see staring back at me.

I make sure to wash my face, brush my teeth and do my hair religiously because there the only things that seem to make me feel like I look acceptable enough to leave the house, and be seen by others. If I don’t do any of them things I literally can’t function properly and will refuse to leave my room.

I’m constantly worrying about everything to do with my face, like what food I eat, what skincare I use, how much water I drink etc… it is consuming a big part of my life. It’s got to a point where I don’t see any future for myself either because I feel no one will ever want me as long as I look the way I do.

I find it hard to explain to people why I feel the way I do as I don’t want to come across as being vain and an attention seeker, so I normally don’t say anything. either that or just hide behind a ‘smile’ and say ‘I’m fine’.

Malise xx

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