To my Mum, Dad and Brother…

I’m sorry for putting you all through everything I’ve been going through. I’m also sorry for pushing you all away when I probably need you the most. I just feel like I’ve got to deal with everything on my own. I love you all dearly and I appreciate your constant support. However, I think because it’s been so long when you do come to visit I feel so detached from you all and like nothings the same anymore.

I am struggling massively and in all honesty, I don’t know how much I can take. I just feel stuck and like I’m getting worse and worse as the days go on. I promise I don’t mean to be so cold-hearted. I didn’t want you to get used to seeing me all the time when anything could happen. Especially with how I’m feeling on a day to day basis. The only reason I continue to struggle is because of you 3. I know you’re fighting to get me the help I need and I know you will do all it takes to help me get better.

In my head, I just always think that constantly hurting myself in various ways is better for you all because at least I’m still alive (unfortunately).

All my love,

Malise xx

One thought on “To my Mum, Dad and Brother…

  1. Aww Malise 😢, you don’t have to be sorry for anything, You can not help your mental health. We are your family and we love you so much❤. We will always be by your side fighting to get you the help you need so just remember that. Just because you are further away and we do not get to see you everyday doesn’t mean you are forgotten about and not loved because you most certainly are. I know phone calls are not the same as seeing us face to face but we are only a phone call away and you know you can call us whenever you want no matter what time of day. Just keep fighting and I promise you we will get you the help you need as I will not stop until you do. You are strong and you can do this ❤ 🌎😘 xxxx

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