Proving ‘them’ wrong!

Hey guys, there is no greater pleasure in life, than proving the people that doubted you, wrong…

When receiving so much doubt from the teachers at school… I always got told ‘you can’t do this’ and ‘you can’t do that’, ‘you will never be able to’… and so on! I really questioned myself after that, I thought that maybe they were right, what’s the point, I’m never going to become who I want to be…

How wrong was I? After overcoming everything I had been through, I was so determined to prove to everyone, that has looked down on me and doubted me, wrong. I always loved writing in primary school, it was only when I faced the problems in high school, that I lost my love for it!

I was certain that it was journalism that I wanted to do and I wasn’t letting anything, stand in my way this time! That’s when I plucked up the courage to enrol in an online feature writing course… I’m not going to lie, I was afraid of failing, just in case it made me lose my way… again, but I already knew so much from my constant research, I didn’t want to throw all the hard work I put in, away. As the days went by, I was learning so much more, I had literally read all the information I needed to know, in a week. All that was left was the assessment…

A 96% pass and a diploma later, I was actually so shocked! I was a step closer to achieving my goal. It was such a big life lesson for me, I can… I will… watch me!

“The ones that say ‘you can’t’ and ‘you won’t’ are probably the ones scared that ‘you will”.

Malise xx


 

‘Look at me now’

Hey! I’ve got a fair few of you wondering, from my first piece, exactly what, why and how, made me want to ‘change for the better’ so that’s exactly what I’m going to openly and honestly share with you all!

I’m going to start with where it all spiralled from, so, imagine being targeted… by your ‘teachers’, (I know shocker right?) but it’s the truth! Everything they did wrong got turned on to me and because I said what I thought about the situation, they came down on me like a ton of bricks. (It wasn’t every teacher because there was the odd few, that I could actually trust). I’m not saying I didn’t make any mistakes because I did, but I took full responsibility for them! No matter how much my mum and dad went in to school, nothing ever changed…

(Well actually it did for the worst!) right from getting put in to isolation for being wrongly accused, from having to have my bag checked because a so called teacher ‘misinterpreted’ something I said. Down to finding out that pupils, had been looking at my personal school file, while being under a teachers supervision! (Who is now funnily enough the head of safeguarding). I remember some of my friends saying to me “you little sh*t” after seeing me with the headteacher. I would always let them assume because it was so much easier, than having to explain and risk getting punished for making the school ‘look bad’. No one knew the half of it!

The final straw was basically getting put on ‘twilight hours’, there was no actual explanation why, apart from ‘everything you have done in the past’. I’ve personally always seen it as, once you’ve taken full responsibility and accepted the punishment for your actions, that’s the end of it and it’s done with! However they was pretty convinced that I was not aloud back in to full time education, until I completed them hours. So after a week of phone calls and requesting meetings, but still getting no where, I decided, right I will give these hours a go (I must of been crazy) but it was the only thing stopping me from getting an education. Never did I think making that decision, would have had as big of an impact on my health and lifestyle as it did…

It was the stress, it was literally taking over. It had a huge impact on me physically, mentally and emotionally. I remember getting up at 6:30 a.m every morning and having to be in school for 8 a.m. The first two days was hard but it was the third day, that was worrying. I would get up and start getting ready, then literally look in the mirror and just completely breakdown. I had no control what so ever! My mum didn’t know what was going on and most importantly neither did I. I knew myself it was out of character and I wasn’t in the right mindset to be going in to school, so my mum phoned up and explained the situation and all she got was “okay she will have to add another day on to her hours then”. I knew that I had to get them ‘hours’ done with, despite what consequences it was having on my health… so that’s exactly what I did!

I was back in school, for one full day before the holidays and let me tell you now that day was anything but normal, as much as I tried to ‘be myself’ deep down I knew I wasn’t! At the start of the holidays, I was avoiding everything I normally enjoyed doing. It even got to the point where I wouldn’t leave my house. I was occasionally having mental breakdowns, that even resulted in me smashing my iPad in anger, for no apparent reason. I was a mess. It was not only affecting me, but also my family. My mum decided she was going to homeschool me herself and I agreed as it was the only thing left to do, little did I know, it was going to be the best decision we ever made! It was a rocky start but not having that unnecessary amount of stress to deal with, helped me so much.

I was sick of living like I did, I knew I needed to do something about it. After months of researching what was wrong with me, I decided to have a positive outlook on it. I began writing down everything I needed to change, in order to feel myself again. My health, diet and mindset were the three things I focussed on, I realised it was something I was deeply passionate for! I’m not saying it was an easy ride because it wasn’t. It was probably the biggest challenge I faced but with determination, a little help from google and my family of course, I was gradually starting to feel my normal, healthy self…

Now to this day, from being homeschooled, I’ve learnt so much more than I have ever learnt in any school! While also achieving a diploma in feature writing and managing to maintain a healthy lifestyle, with a positive mindset.

“The comeback is always stronger than the set back”

Malise xx


 

A change for the better!

Hey guys, this is my first content piece, (it’s going to be nothing but open and honest…) so what better way to start than with how I changed my health and lifestyle for the better!

In 2015 (back when I was in school) I was under an unnecessary amount of stress, eating a poor diet and doing very minimal excerise, which all lead to me feeling absolutely terrible in myself, especially with all the problems that followed e.g bad complexion, mental breakdowns, low energy, low self esteem, anxiety and depression. I was basically the worst version of myself. That’s when I knew I had to change something! Google became my best friend at this point, you know those late night searches, self diagnosing, until stupid 0’clock… (yep that was pretty much my life then).

That was until I became really interested in health and nutrition, it literally took over a big part of my life (in a positive way) and still does to this day. I focussed on changing my diet, lifestyle and mindset, it was a challenge, but one I was willing to try… Changing my diet I personally found relatively easy, it was keeping a positive mindset and having a stress free lifestyle that I found the most challenging. However having a passion for something really helped me with staying positive, (especially when I can be my own worst critic). Being homeschooled pretty much solved the stress problem, that and actually taking time to unwind and relax now and then. I obviously still have my good and bad days now, but who doesn’t right?

“Believe you can and you’re half way there”

Malise xx


 

My first blog post…

Hey everyone, this is my first ever post (I’m very new to this as you can probably tell) so here goes… I’m Malise Honey, I’m 17 years old, I live in South Yorkshire. Since being homeschooled from the age of 15, I’ve got a real passion for everything Health and Beauty related.

By achieving a diploma in feature writing, it really gave me the confidence boost and encouragement I needed to finally start my blog. I’m super excited to share everything I’ve learnt with you guys and to hopefully inspire and motivate you all, with what I know and love, including my lifestyle, healthy living, my favourite beauty routines and my holy grail products.

Malise xx